Did I really think that?
Did I say that?
Or did I imagine the whole thing?
After all, I'm insane
Psychotic, depressed
Lunatic,
Getting closer an closer
To the borderline
You dare not name.
Fear on you like
Cheap cologne
No used as sacred grounding breath
But as marinade
Your whole soul is marinated
In the fear of something
You didn't plan, you didn't control
I am not your Frankenstein bride
To be pieced together in your
Green-blooded image.
I am a fully-formed
Athena
Birthed from my past
But you would rather
I burst forth from some
Iron maiden of your shaping
The perfect geek princess
With no demands
And the desire to fuck
Like a bunny on your
Whim.
So you see,
I guess it wasn't meant to be
You and me
Because I refuse to
Lose my mind or my
Self to earn the prize
The price to play got too high
And you refused to
Negotiate.
So here we are
Debating mythologies
And I say I worship
The sky, the earth
The living
Not the flow of electrons
And you say it does not
Compute
And dump the core
Fresh kernel
Fresh start
While I pick up the pieces
And wonder why
I can't seem to care today
I did yesterday
And no fairy dust is in
Evidence
So it must be
Just me.