8.10.99, midnite

sometimes it's easier just not to
          start          then the expec-
tation of self dissolves
into inner eye
                    I watch
now others pass me by
          and I'm still in love

          then I'm in pain it
          jolts me back to that
first year when I had time

energy only to          letter a day
for you           keep none for
myself          inner eye
two dogs on a hunting
                    trip
one drowns the other          hibernates
but together both learn the
          power of dream

On a more positive note
we have been reincarnated
          into something
but too baby to understand
          what
inner eye stings
          imagine
                    manatee
performed loquacion:
          kiss

when everyone else is
coupling like kindling
we grow distant
into each other
she said
          there was in my dream
          an angel at the door
          he gave me a dollar
          I thanked him he
          flew to the moon
I said
          I like the part about the angel

He said
          I opened the water
          and there was a ship
but he was unable to
          share this with us
quiet intellectual           who
will inevitably be lost at
          sea

clever girl who will
never get her piano lessons
jokes about horse-hair
weaves a girl          about
to throw a metal chair
          friend stops her
little girl who
whispers in my ear

          My sister lost her baby
or
          My mom's boyfriend treats
          her nice           he gave her $200