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August, 2003 Dorchester The last kingdom of cyanide beetle power all the besieged insects of the kitchen cabinets, the swarms of ants following the ant-smell trails to my chocolate raspberry cocoa, the fat flies spiraling near the lights, the cockroaches at the daycare center outlasting the exterminator yours is the kingdom, but you don't need me to say that. Insect-mind, what do you say to human mind? Solitary spiders collective bee brilliance, the bloodsuckers: mosquitoes, leeches…my kind hates yours because you are so small and crushable, so helpless against us and yet you survive so stubbornly in such great numbers and could care less about usyou never even acknowledge usnot a nod or a wave or a flip on your back to be scratched. we hate that you don't need us, don't have fur or mother-lovethat's why we like bees the mostthey honor their Queen & you won't talk to us. You are a sign of filth, of disease, of the breakdown of the boundary of inside and out, of domestic order, of human control; you sneak through, under the radar, procreate in dark corners and colonize our kitchens, our gardens our civilization infiltrating inner chambers with thousands of miniscule unshod feet and weird compound eyes. you remind us of our least recognized nonvertebrate selves; we'll never admit in our room full of brain is a cell or two that pulses a history of our insect mind pre-verbal, pre-one specialized cell flickering deep within the complex human neural coils does it, too. When it sees you. trigger the impulse: destroy? or does it pulse blankly at the monster digression from work work follow the food-path cringe at pain, scurry at high speed when the shadow of a human limb approaches.
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